Wednesday, May 16, 2007
new blog
ATTENTION ALLi managed to get my butt into my blog again. but ive created a new one. check it out k.
these are the following blogs i own:
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www.attitudelamb.blogspot.comTHIS-----
http://www.maryhasnolamb.blogspot.comWHILE MAD-----
http://attitudelamb.livejournal.comfrom now on i will be updated the NEW one so do change your links when u are free. but if u choose to ignore its ok, i am not gonna delete this blog anyway. =) i love all my blogs.
Cries of attitudelamb at 12:43 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
i am fuming with anger. at what? at MYSELF!!! fucking hell u would be laughing till your butt fume and ur teeth shaking because what i am angry at is really damn dumb but i bet anyone of u will be. scene is.....yeah, i am so happy. tml i have off. evening for camp till sunday. finally can wake up damn late tml la. but at night the night activity ends sibei late man. sian ji bua. nvm la tml wake up later can liao... a few mins later, dada called. tml toe operation in the morning, tml i off can acc him. wah piang eh, of all the timing why in the morning when i finally can slp???? sian man! ok what is the irritating part of the story, it is me being angry bcoz i cant get to slp. isnt it totally dumb. i feel so kiddy and selfish. but really i was so happy and now i am now. i feel bad for not wanting to acc him to the hosp knowing that i wont get to see him during the weekends. but a part of me feels guilty yet the other part of me feels angry. angry because i have to get up early. guilty because i actually chose slp to him. fuck the shit in me man fucking hell.i really dont understand why must i get so worked up because i cant sleep. and now that i know i have to wake up early tml yet i still want to come online to vent my anger thus wasting more time but i know if i go to bed now i wouldnt slp because i just feel so unhappy and not at ease. i feel like there's something bothering me so badly that i just felt like screaming the hell outta me now. damn myself. damn damn damn. such an ass. ok, i feel much better now. go slp shoo shoo. i will go with him. tml morning. fcuk my attitude. i really have serious bad attitude.
Cries of attitudelamb at 7:51 AM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
yawns. yawns. yawns again. Sunday ah! no sailing. stay at home. just now went to bb mrt met dada for a lil while. he gave me this huge turtle. it looked exactly like him. botak, round and its damn cute la! HAHAHA! i love it! thanks honey. =Pok ytd went shopping with dada at imm, giant. he wanted to buy some stuffs to bring back to camp. haha, and i almost forgot. on friday when i went to lot 1 to meet him after his first 10 days in camp, i got a shock of my life when i saw him. seriously i couldnt recognise him at all. now i know why he got bullied. my dada looked like a potato coach! like gong gong sotong. damn funny. not nice not nice. cannot cut botak. make him look very dumb. got hair nicer. haha. but still very hugable. i like. haha. ok ya back to ytd. shopping shopping. its really fun shopping together. i like pushing the trolley. lols. after buying all neccessities, we went to our fav fast food in imm, long john silver!!! cheap, filling and yummy. hee. when all's done, took a cab, he dropped me off and i headed to poly marina for the prep camp. learnt some games and songs. not much actually. there will be 3 grps. xinni and grace pair. gary and i pair. denesh and kian yong pair. one les one gay and one normal. HAHA! game aint that torturous la. thank goodness lor. but seriously i do hope the camp will turn out fun. though i have a sense of dread. right anyway, we went to tiong bahru for dinner after the crap. gary's recommendation. not bad gary! thumbs up. haha. spice was good but i ordered the wrong dish. beehoon goreng there isnt good at all. its so damn moist and i had a hard time trying to swollow it. managed to gobble up only half of the plate. next station we went to the chinese food house. wah liao! the peanut butter with condensed milk toast is yummilicious la! the toast is like super uber thick and eat mouth sent us to heaven. with a bowl of white fungus desert, its really soothing. the atmosphere is good too. we gossiped and crapped and laughed and farted. ok maybe the last's not in but we had fun. went home when its late, walked to the mrt station, kinda far actually.. and a goooooddd sleeeppp..right, so today is quiet. home home. gonna watch 'braveheart' later. do some exercises. shower. church. eat. slp. tomorrow gotta work. so so reluctant. i miss school. so much. =( i dont like to work. i hate the stress and responsibility. though its not like always but still i dont like waking up early in the morning just when the sun is rising.. ok its a gloomy weather. enough of blogging. ciao.
Cries of attitudelamb at 11:39 PM
Monday, April 16, 2007
hohoho.. im actually back to playing neopets due to the influence of some colleagues here. senior colleagues i must say. HAHA! and im quite surprised to know the fact that one of the GM here, mother of two, actually plays maple. haha. that shows that adults are young at heart.having tummy cramps now. feel kinda weak. but still i hope today will be a better day. its tuesday. another 3 more days and dada will be out of camp. roarhahaha! =) there are many stupid things i wanna blog abt. but i need some time to recall what stupid things are they.on sunday i wanted so badly to borrow or buy the exocism of emily rose. but i ended up buying the show braveheart. haven watch it but when i am free i will. i have an urge to buy the show aja, geum soon! the korean drama thats now showing on channel u every night at 7pm. but it cost 70 bucks. for the whole set. quite cheap actually but to poor ppl like me its actually a bomb. and i really cant bear to just slide my card for that. not worth it huh. that stupid video ezy dvd/vcd rental shop, bloody hell. all open in the east and north area, west are only 1 or 2. shit la! i wanna borrow oso so inconvenient. waste my membership. bloody 5 dollars. arse luck.ya and time now is only 11.13am. still early. everyone's busy but me. i am supposed to be busy but no signature means no work. too bad. =) i just got my monkey back, my dear dear monkey wenting gave to me on my birthday. dont know which birthday but i love it. or is it a christmas exchange gift? ok wadeva way i got it, i know its from my dear wenting. hee. i miss my friends so much. those i see new friends everyday, my old friends i do miss their stupid jokes. was chatting with sab two days ago. haiz, how i wish everyone's around. i want a gathering someday. just us and no one else. we can go eat the you mian dry. go to our old hang outs. go do stupid things and describe shits. go cut hair and watch movies. all those craps. i miss secondary school life. i miss going to taf club. i miss those strenous trainings. i miss my 60 kg weight. LOL!!! thats the lightest i've been for ur info. never hit a 50 mark before. lol! right anyway, i want to learn diving. beautiful fishes, swimming with sharks, rays and baracudas. isnt it thrilling? ya, waiting for dada to complete ns i'll see if he is interested. we can go learn together. or i can get my crazy frenz to go with me. ish... thrill thrill. i wanna be on a coaster ride now. i feel like trying something earth shaking. =) im mad.
Cries of attitudelamb at 7:04 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
haiz, my dada has been gone for 2 days le. not really used to it. anyway, im having constipation. 1 week no shit man, die la. where did all the food go? i wonder. my stomach is like so bloated, round and hard. all the shit stored there. die la, i worried man, what if i get intestine cancer? AH!!! damn scary. my colleagues let me drink fibre gel, tea, eat fruits and veg also no use. haiz, i think my butt hole too small. maybe i should go for an enlargement. butthole enlargement. gays do that dont they? =) alright, work's ok so far. no panic reports. but i bet all will be coming next week when my dear colleague suresh leaves. i will be handling all the old vessels myself and there are like so so so damn plenty of them. im dead. sigh.i can feel the shit in my rectum but it just wouldnt come out no matter how hard i squeeze, and i dont intend to push too hard as i really dont wish to shit out my intestines or tear my butt hole. i bled on sat when i tried to push a five stone's size shit out of my butt hole. it was alot of blood. and it really freaked the hell outta me man. i was like traumatised in the toilet and i was yeaping for help. my menses cant be early by so many days and it was of course not my menses. ok i know im being digusting but who cares, i have constipation, i am suffering from depression bcoz i cant shit and i feel heavy. haha.
Cries of attitudelamb at 7:47 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
alah its all my fault ok, i should have shutted up, i shouldnt have told u anything or said anything. i shouldnt have known anything in the first place. haiz, so regretful now. u failed because i made u feel pressurised. im sorry. i feel so guilty. its all my fault. blame me for everything ok, at least i'll feel better in disguise. i'll pay for ur next tp ok. but im sorry i cant make the date any sooner bcoz im not the one who sets the date. but in future if i ever own that driving center den i will ok. haiz i hate everything right now, everything and everyone including myself. why am i so suay, everything i say will always happen and its always the bad things. everything i feared i'll do wrong will definitely go wrong. whats wrong man. am i really that cursed. fuck la! fucking irritated and frustrated now. cursed bitch man me. but i really feel angry and guilty right now. i keep asking why. but i dont get a satisfying answer. haiya thats life la, ppl like to blame on others when things go wrong. its always, "haiya, if u nv tell me that then it wouldnt have happened." or "is he/she tell me one lor, i donno anything ok." ok for the first statement, yes maybe thats the case u got distracted bcoz some stupid bitch told u u will never ever make it but its ur own willingness that counts, ur attention and skills, ur knowledge. and its not always the stupid bitch who says u can never make it, she might say u can, its just a possibility of not as thats what happens in most cases, however she's to be blame but not wholely. as for the second statement, yes that asshole who told u is at fault but u have to take responsibility for ur actions too. cant possibly let that asshole take all the blame, what u can do is help correct the mistake and not make the same mistakes again. am i wrong to say so? argh, im so angry and hot and smelly and suckie. i am such a bitch. fuck off.
Cries of attitudelamb at 7:01 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
today is Good Friday.
the day Christ died. bet it will rain later.
rightie, going to church soon. mass at 3pm. such a slow day. yesterday was a really crazy day. it was also my busiest day in SKL so far. from morning 8am, i started working all the way till 1pm. didnt have the time to have my lunch as i had to rush a list of orders for kts romeo as she will be leaving this morning to tuas jetty and she will only arrive yesterday at 6pm. had so much things to purchase for her. couldnt get some items, like a tv without antenna, torch light without batteries. haha! and no detergine. die la! anyway the last order was the lube oil. will be sending it over tomorrow. but other than that, i had to make an appointment for two vessels both with a barge. had to communicate with the agents in phillipines. could really understand what they're saying. i called this guy, an ang moh and he was having his holiday in cambodia. so embarrassed to disturb him while he was on a vacation. luckily he was very helpful and friendly. ya, so by the time i finish making the appointments it was kinda late and i have yet to purchase those items for kts romeo. rushed like mad. done everything by 6pm. have two more list of items to purchase for the two vessels i hate most. kts jade and emperor. two bloody ships with lotsa problem. hate it. anyway im leaving it aside first, shall deal with it on monday.
after which we stayed in the office waiting for my colleagues and manager to return from the survey of kts romeo before we head of to westmall for sakae sushi. supplier treating us. gavin and jayden. those we quoted the damn expensive ropes. haha, they were asking why has it been so quiet lately. no orders from us and we were kinda embarrassed to say because their quotes are really too high compared to the other companies. haha. anyway had sashimi. yummilicious. im in love with salmon. haha! its really great man. total bill was 400++. not because we ate alot but it was the table behind us, my extra colleagues who tagged along for free dinner. they sat at the other table so they were not shy to eat. kept ordering sashimi man those idiots. damn funny la. and they were the least shy about it. so thick skin. they are really hilarious people. haha. when to the arcade to play the saucer thing. then we went to kbox at dhouby ghaut there. stayed there till 4 before our manager sent us home. damn tired man. had a short nap in the kbox while those crazy ppl sang. haha, i was woken up by my stupid manager's horrid singing. he was sing twist and shake and he was so loud. haha and they were laughing so loudly. had fun.
ok im going to shower. needa go church man. woosh.
Cries of attitudelamb at 10:44 PM
